Peeeerrrrtttyyy?
Last night I was at my friend Kitty's Birthday party, fairy themed. I went glitter mad, my fine metallic knitted top, glitter tights, and two vintage brooches attached to my skirt. I felt slightly, just slightly out of place, because her 'crowd' is not my usual type of people ( they are all lovely though ) and also cause I dont fit a mould. It doesn't bother me, part of my lack-luster attitude. It was FUN and thats what matters. Consisting of a meal, present opening, and games ( oldies like pass the parcel, musical bumps ect.) in-fact i WON musical bumps and a chocolate chicken.....:P So yeah...i went for a long rainy catch-up walk walk with Charlotte, we were best friends in Primary school but when i became ill she ( like many others, understandably) had no time for me and my pathetic illness. So today was LOVELY:P (walllybum) Tonight is going to be spent practising for my practical music exam...BBBOOOOOO!! Naaaat looking forward to it in theee slightest.
TURTLE??
This photo is from when i was 3 years old, Turkey again. My mum looks so happy, i wish i could see her like that again. So vibrant and full of life, I have worn her down, worn both my parents down. They are shells of people at the moment, only starting to regain a grasp of what 'normal' life is...:( In fact I reckon my dads worse, his depressions come back, he is unemployed, and now there is nothing to concentrate on as i am gradually letting go of the 'hands'. Braving it on my own. They mean the world to me, literarily, i had a dream my dad died the other night and thought about throughout the next day, crying at least 3 times:( ( oh yeah the title refers to the turtle in my mums hand, you cant really see it...)
I cant fuckin wait.....
for summer. It will be amazing, no exams, no stress, healthy me. I think my family has had a change of thought on where to go, cause my mums has been offered a chance to go to France for 3 weeks to do a carving symposium. Yes my parents are both artist, mums a stone/wood carver, she does school projects too. Dads ( when he has work ) designs bespoke gardens and then make them with his 'workers'. So....i think we may go out and visit her, also Croatia isnt looking to good politically.
Know what? I am over it........I wish:(
The 'guy' I talked about before is constantly on my mind ( FUCK, I hope he dosent read this, he wont, he doesnt care...) Would you know what i meant if I said I felt a click? Cause i did, I hadnt noticed him before, then it clicked and now i cant stop thinking about him....:L I have so fucking much to give, so much love, that over the past years has been stored away waiting.....
Okay I admit I am obsessed...with BON IVER...:D
Bon Iver - re:stacks - Absolutely beautiful song, make me wanna cry...Bon Iver – re:stacks
Bon Iver, Kanye West, Nicki Minaj- Monster --- TUNE Kanye West – Monster
Bon Iver - Wisconsin ----tres beauBon Iver – Wisconsin
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