Such a fucking bad day...not quite too sure why just has been horrific. Feeling so down tonight, cried for the first time in about two weeks ( record )...big fat PROPER tears. But I can't talk to my parents about the 'issue' cause it a bit cringe worthy, in their eyes I'm innocent, a good girl who wont take interest in guys until I'm 20....their so so soooooo wrong . They think I would never skive, wrong again. Smoke, my mum is convinced she would be able to smell it but i have many times at parties and she hasn't. In their eyes I'm an angel, incorrect!
You may be wondering if my conscience suffers? Nope, never. I probably should, in fact even eating total crap( chocolate crisps ect..) doesn't even make me feel bad anymore....My stresses are about completely different things now, no longer, food, timings, neatness, and exercise.Now more about fashion, school work, friends.....ect.
Rant over? Not quite...
so....whats been happening, not much really the weekend was a disappointment, no gig on Saturday, worked both days and had loads of homework...Then Mondays are shit days, classic 'monday blues' feeling. And today, well what can i say, SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT. Oh well, it almost the end of the day now, tomozza should be better eh? Oh! aaaannnd on friday my cousin Georgia and friend Heather are coming over and we are going to dip dye our hair. Personally I am going to go for a auburn tipped look..EXCITED!!!
should look something like this... but auburn...
WHATS UP WITH YOUR FACE?
Some of the questions that I am being asked on my formspring are REALLY bringing me down, ones like ' you ugly but nice' I mean how am I suppose to react to that. Or ' How much do you weigh' There has been loads of ones about food, health, and weight ect, but you know what imma not answering them, sozza!