So! I haven't give much away about my ED so far in this blog...I will give you a brief timeline...
Winter 2007- My dad had an accident which meant he was in intensive care for two weeks....made me stressed anxious and my 'best' friend wasn't couldn't care less as she was in the midst of becoming Miss Popular...
Spring 2008- Went on First year residential...got incredibly home sick...felt unhappy with my body pledged to loose 1 stone...
Summer 2008- Had lost the weight...but wasn't happy...:( kept on loosing causing major concern to my parents( my mum had anorexia as a teenager...it was left undiagnosed as nobody really believed in 'mental illness' in those days..) Went Turkey for 2 week holiday...came back lighter:L
Late Summer 2008- After the first two week back at school i was admitted into IP in Edinburgh...There are no Day Centres near me and becuase my postcode is not Edinburgh i could go to the one attached to the IP.
January 2009- Discharged from hospital on the condition i gain more weight...go back to school full time where my 'best' friend is overly nice and too protective.
May 2009- After a walking holiday in Devon, admitted back into IP...only to be discharged 2 weeks later...
End of Summer 2009- Go to IP for to week as a day patient ( They eventually decided i could go)
Christmas 2009- have reached almost healthy BMI...have a stressful day but nice christmas period ( London for the weekend before
February 2010- My 'best' friend ( who over the past year are relationship has become stronger, made friendships with her new friends, had been accepted into her 'group') Stops speaking to me. Tells me she cant look at me any more ( even though i was at this point healthy) Tells me i cant hang around with her..my quirky style doesn't fit...
So i broke down couldn't cope with walking around school on my own... I had no friends, no one to talk to .
Summer 2010- My weight had being slowly declining since February, but we still go on a much needed holiday to Italy. Three weeks of mountain climbing ( eating a lot but not enough..) takes its toll and by the end of the summer my weight is low again and feeling lonelier than ever...
November 2010- GET A PUPPY!!! This was a break through, being an only child all the attention( especially when i was ill was on me) Start to gain weight. Properly
Christmas 2010- BMI good, me good, eating good, everything good.
January 2011- First set of EXAMS!! aaaarrrggghhhh!!! thought i would be stressed but i found it made me actually gain more weight!!
Picture...bad quality form my Mac Book Pro but is from today
Catch ya!!
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Hey there, just saw your blog. Glad that you are in recovery now. As cliche as it sounds, you are young and have a whole lifetime ahead of you. Keep fighting and reaching out. Life is way more than an ED!
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