It FRIDAY bbz.

Sozza i never posted yesterday, damned english folio got in the way. So? how are ya? feeling gid cause i am!

T'day
Has been mediocre, nae much happened. School and that, came home, was locked out of the house. FAIL. Parents came back, let me in. That is the excitement of my day..... but generally i am feeling perky, probs cause its the WEEKEND baby.I is working tomozza, then going shoppin' on Sunday wif my beautiful, talented cousin Georgia Gordon, check out her music its BEASTIN.

OH! Look I found this....LOLLOLLOLLOL :P

Why oh why? you may ask, because its funnay:P Haw haw haw...actually its pretty cringeworthy too.
Belly Dancing, i was not the best at, but i think i started too young...nae belly or boobs, kinda an essential part in the whole thing.



Oooft check out our white socks:L........













' You get high, cause you've got low self-esteem'
What do I have low self-esteem? I dae ken. The only way i can describe how it feels is by saying I feel like people are always, like constantly looking cause theres something up. I know in my heart they aren't looking, but i can just sense eyes on me. Its ma face that really gets to me, its just soo frikin round and pure ugly...:( I dont mind the rest o me, just the face could do with a changing.

BOOM BOOM!!


Some ssaaawwwnngs fo ya.

Frank Zappa- Willie the Pimp  ( nae personal reference)
Frank Zappa - Willie The Pimp

Franz Ferdinand- Katherine Kiss Me ( aaawww such a sweet tune:P)
Katherine Kiss Me

Cream- White Room ( wait till the violins end, its worth it.)
Cream - White Room

Julian Casablancas ( words cant describe how much of a babe he is...) -  Glass  ( lovelovelovelovelove)
Julian Casablancas Phrazes For The Young "Glass"

Anyways i will leave you with dat bbz
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Sup?

Late post cause I have been v busy:P It gonna be short and sweet though:)

Italia 2k11

< Thats my and my mammy on the ridge of Mount Alto July 2011......beautiful day, beautiful picture, shame about me in it though...:L I look pale, grumpy and too thin. :(  the paleness is highlighted by my mum being practically black... -_- lucky bitch!!
We went to Italy for threes weeks...it was one of the best holidays EVER!! Apart from the fact that i am an only child it gets kind of boring....this year I think my lovely, friend Cara may be coming with us, we dont know were we are going, we never do.
















Wed-nes-day
Boring, boring, boring, boring day......I think my expectations are always too high. Maybe not, maybe I'm just utterly dull...:L RIGHT I have to stop thinking like this. Focus on my positives, not looks cause their just non existent but qualities.
I am caring
I am cheerful ( or can be when im in the mood:P)
Funny? ( IDK you cant really judge that one yourself)
Individual
Clever ( only, i crumble under pressure)
Hope all the above don't sound vain, I am doing this blog for me, trying to gain back confidence and
self-assurance.


Musique c'est beau.
Excuse the very mixed collection of tunes.....we my mood took me.

John Lennon( ledge ) - Cold Turkey ( just miss the end when you start hearing the screaming...it goes on, and on, and on. )
John Lennon Cold Turkey

Wooden-box with a fistful of fivers- Hang the Noose (saw this band last year, and no, its not a depressed reference it a gid tune from a Scottish band)
Hang the noose - Woodenbox with a fistful of fivers

Stevie Wonder- Master Blaster ( Jammin') ( this is possibly the most amazing song i have listened to today!! LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN:) )


Anyway i'm going to sleep sozza its not longer..:L

Happiness Hit Her.... Like A Train On A Track....

OHAI!!
Wanna see another post? Well tuff imma putting it here anyway:P

"Back to the start, a lonely day at the railway station"
Where to start? How about right at the beginning......

I was born on the 17th of August 1995 in Edinburgh....not the Simpson hospital....but somewhere else....idk the name.:P My mums half Indian, half Irish and my dads half Scottish, half English. Sadly i posses non of the dark skin genes.....i do not tan. Not one but :(  I was told i looked like a traveller when i was small...true story:L Don't worry when i get married I won't have a dress that it bigger than the car, an i have no desire to live in a caravan!! I have found a picture o prove it...round face, freckles, button nose...MAHN! I was cute back then...what the hell happened.  Anyway...yeah didnt seem to inherit much...my mum has  jet black hair, my dad has dark brown however, I have blond-ish curly hair :P The photo is taken again form Turkey...2004?


L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N
Who's all excited for summer??? MEEE!!!For soo sooo sooooooo many reasons:P
 - Exams over....YYYAAASSSSS!!
- Insider festival, small boutique music festival in Avimore ( beastin last year, this year will be even better:P)
- La Gomara with mammy:D A non-touristy Canary Island...
- Hopefully Croatia....depends on the mutt.
- Sweet Sixteen....ooh i cant wait to buy a lottery ticket...jokes.:P
And a few more ;)

Whats happenin' bruv?
Again another average day...Double P.E to start isnt very pleasant though :L Still no art:( So I consider Tuesday a 'meehhh...' day. Tonights gonna be hell:( 2 essays...one in French. To be honest its my fault, i am probs the most disorganised person alive( they were suppose to be in two weeks ago:L)...but hey that the way i roll:P

V BEATS AYYYEEEE:P
I have listened to so many gid tunes today but i have selected a few of my favs.....enjoy!

Joe Bonamassa- Feelin'  Good    - this is my ultimate favourite of all the covers out there.:)

             Joe Bonamassa - Feelin' Good           

The White Stripes- Offend In Every Way    - awesome classic that popped up pn my shuffle and reminded me how much i like it : )

The White Stripes Offend in Every Way


And of corse something new and practically unheard of...

Pearly Gate Music- Bad Nostalgia    - From the US of A the AMAZING:P

Bad Nostalgia


Where do i learn about this kind of music? Well, i read shit loads of music magazines and just browse Myspace:P


VINTAGÉ


Today i have been wearing my small 'DAKS' silk scarf from Rokit in London wrapped round my wrist........


Anyway i have to go do these essays:((

Au revoir mon amie..

RIGHT screw this I am going back to the old kind of posting....

OKay, so the last few post have been a load of pashy shite,  even though its my life it only a bit of my life. So i am going to go back to the way of posting, the way i did before i deleted my other blog. So a bit of the past, bit of the future and a tiny bit of the present...Oh! and a hole load of music and vintage jewellery.

Dont look back on the past eh? Well I like to.

 Turkey 2005....gosh that was a long long loooonnnnnggg time ago! My parents and I went to Bosbourine, Turkey for 7 years running. It isn't like the Turkey your hear about, i.e a load of neds getting their 'chebs oot' for tanning, not at all. Its a quiet, small, v Turkish fishing village 2 hours away from any big town. It is BEAUTIFUL!! My parents are keen walkers, when I say keen I mean all the holidays I have been on have included walking. Some people dont appreciate nature, views ect....I used to moan and cause a fuss, even though I am not particularly interested in bug n that, I truly treasure the places and things I have seen. All through this holiday at the ripe age of 8 I was constantly listening to the entire Beatles album, on my I-pod shuffle....oh yeah :P  

Lets talk about the future now eh?
I am excited for the future, both near and distant. I am probs more for the near. Recently, i.e the last 6 months i have increasingly become happier....or more content whichever one it is I feel warm and fuzzy knowing that i have defeated the biggest demand of my life. Honestly I truly truly beleive i am well on my way to being completely recovered. I am going to be one of the 20 percent who do it! I have soo much i want to achieve.....heres just some of my ambitions...

To become a midwife ( your probs thinking eeewwww..... but its what i wanna do, it will be well rewarding and that eh? )

To have children( my body has to be strong enough to cope with that eh?)

Travel- America, Iceland, New Zealand, China, Canada...... the list goes on,and on.

I would also like to, if I was good enough set up a midwifery school in somewhere like Africa or Indonesia.


Wanna know what happened today??
Nothing much tbh...just a normal day at school...Physics, Music, French, English, Chemistry ( although i dropped it this time last year due to stress so I get a free period....which is always spent in art...my second home:P)and Maths to finish....a pretty brutal day of subjects ( no art :( ) Mondays along with Wednesdays are theee worst...

Munching on at this moment- Chocolate raisins....<3

TUUUUNNNEEEESS:P
Currently i am listening to,

Jimi Hendrix-  Highway Chile ( my tastes isnt everyones but it gid:P) check out the riff its awesome:D

Jimi Hendrix - Highway Chile

Kings of Leon ( babes )- Day Old Blues ( friking sweet, wait for the chorus)

Kings Of Leon - Four Kicks

London Blackmarket- Checkmate. This is an AMAZING song from a practically unheard of band!!! LISTEN!!!

London Blackmarket - Checkmate

VINTAGE OF THE DAY:D
My grandmothers old rings, non expensive( i hope seeing as i wear them everywhere) but v Jack Sparrow:P

that is all....
X

So.Many.Essays:(

Okay, it feels like this week has taken FOREVER and it not aver yet...:(
To complete by TOMORROW:O
- MacBeth essay
- Picasso and Gauguin essay
- Reflexive essay
- French folio peice
- A shit load of trig....
NOT GOOD!!!

Plus i have one of my extremely painful migraines...it can only get better eh?!

Too good a weekend to do homework so now it all catching up on me... Its because we have a weeks holiday next week 'February Break' but its a pretty depressing time to have a break cause its always raining and grey:( Oh well! my lovely fried Kitty had invited me over to hers for a wee sesh which should be nice!! I cant wait to get away from damp cold SCOTLAND!!! Honestly never ever come here it gross...Well...it can be pretty but i would say 70 percent of the time its raining or cloudy.I hope to go to Bolder, Colorado to stay with my cousins for my last year of high school ( 2012 )

Anyway its late and i have tonnes to do...rant over!!!

catch ya!
XXXX

MORNING!!

Just woken up with a terrible headache.....the aftermath of last night! Its probably partly to do with the strobe lights which flashed all night, the banging tunes or the alcohol. I didn't actually drink too much just some vodka shots then a beer and a wee bit of my friends vodka...I know it sounds bad  but its what the youth cultures like in Scotland...seriously, if you haven't been drunk by the age of 13 somethings wrong...:L
So! I haven't give much away about my ED so far in this blog...I will give you a brief timeline...

Winter 2007- My dad had an accident  which meant he was in intensive care for two weeks....made me stressed anxious and my 'best' friend wasn't couldn't care less as she was in the midst of becoming Miss Popular...

Spring 2008- Went on First year residential...got incredibly home sick...felt unhappy with my body pledged to loose 1 stone...

Summer 2008- Had lost the weight...but wasn't happy...:( kept on loosing causing major concern to my parents( my mum had anorexia as a teenager...it was left undiagnosed as nobody really believed in 'mental illness' in those days..) Went Turkey for  2 week holiday...came back lighter:L

Late Summer 2008- After the first two week back at school i was  admitted into IP in Edinburgh...There are no Day Centres near me and becuase my postcode is not Edinburgh i could go to the one attached to the IP.

January 2009- Discharged from hospital on the condition i gain more weight...go back to school full time where my 'best' friend is overly nice and too protective.

May 2009- After a walking holiday in Devon, admitted back into IP...only to be discharged 2 weeks later...

End of Summer 2009- Go to IP for to week as a day patient ( They eventually decided i could go)

Christmas 2009- have reached almost healthy BMI...have a stressful day but nice christmas period ( London for the weekend before



  February 2010- My 'best' friend ( who over the past year are relationship has become stronger, made friendships with her new friends, had been accepted into her 'group') Stops speaking to me. Tells me she cant look at me any more ( even though i was at this point healthy) Tells me i cant hang around with her..my quirky style doesn't fit...
So i broke down couldn't cope with walking around school on my own... I had no friends, no one to talk to .

Summer 2010- My weight had being slowly declining since February, but we still go on a much needed holiday to Italy. Three weeks of mountain climbing ( eating a lot but not enough..) takes its toll and by the end of the summer my weight is low again and feeling  lonelier than ever...

November 2010- GET A PUPPY!!! This was a break through, being an only child all the attention( especially when i was ill was on me) Start to gain weight. Properly

Christmas 2010- BMI good, me good, eating good, everything good.

January 2011-  First set of EXAMS!! aaaarrrggghhhh!!! thought i would be stressed but i found it made me actually gain more weight!!

February 2011- Finally after a long long hall i am looking forward to the future!! Come on life give it to me...nothing can be harder than what i have been through.

Picture...bad quality form my Mac Book Pro but is from today

Catch ya!!
XXX

Finally got round to setting up a new blog!!!

Well, Hello!

This is me, well this picture is actually from December 25th...but oh well! Haven't quite got to grips with downloading pictures of my camera onto my new lap top!
Anyways...today I have just pottered really... I am going out tonight to a ' after mocks party' which should be a laugh. Took my beautiful 5 month old lurcher puppy, Zak for a walk to the village.

Well...thats enough for now, I intended to write more but my friend just phoned and asked me to come to hers earlier as her sister has stolen her straighteners!!
Alex-India
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